2006-05-21 - 5:25 a.m.

full of rabu

hisashiburi~ haven't updated in a while since exams. which haven't been great so far, but i've ranted to a few people and i've ranted enough. kinda sick of talking about it and worrying and all. just gonna chill now. hugs to snuffy, tako and stephie for caring <3 just praying hard every day that everything will turn out fine.

anyways i'm completely outdated with kt and JE world esp since internet broke down completely in my room. will only be online more from next weekend onwards, when i'm back in singapore. OH YES SNUFFY IM COMING BACK! lol. ayura and nanako!! where are you!?! lol i'm coming baaaacckkK~~~ XD

ho hum. these days haven't really been in the mood to do anything. i guess since the finals have been quite crappy, i've lost all the mood and energy to study anymore. i've got a final subject though, two papers spread over mon and tues. hope i'll pull thru. i don't even feel nervous or worried anymore. partly because i dunno how it can salvage the already messed up papers, and partly because i just feel a bit numb. hopefully summer will be a good one. i want to have some FUN and EXCITING and CONSTRUCTIVE time back in singapore. besides meeting up with friends and having fun and going out, also need to start lookin around for a job or attachment and take up japanese classes and dance classes. feel like such a useless bum these few weeks, doing nothing constructive about my life. and prob should self-study and improve my english and chinese. and math. esp if i do Archi. need to read up on that too so i'll be more prepared for uni. i'm not really like paranoid. just don't want to screw up any chances i have. cos i've messed up some chances here. even though i've reaped good things too.

okay excuse my babble.

anyway. hope my luck will take a turn for the better.

well. what i DID do while mooching around this week, with no internet access in my room, no money to go out, etc, was to watch Nobuta (yes AT LAST lol). thanks to steph for buying me the dvds <3 and rewatched Gokusen. gosh i couldn't stop gushing over how cute kame was in Nobuta. his acting seriously improved. but Gokusen is still the best. omgggggg hayato and ryu is LOVE. and takeda is soooooo kawaiiiiiiiiiii and tsuchi aka mokomichi is HOT HOT HOTTTTTTTTTTT SOOOOO HOTTTTTTT OTOKO RASHIIII i think i typed up this whole rave in some Word doc lol shall copy and paste later... and hyuga is so funny too... and yankumi is really pretty ne... i kept noticing how pretty she is in that geisha make-up... sooooooo pretty so geisha-like... elegant and delicate and so refined. i mean, she can even look good with hair parted in two ponytails and glasses lol. i know i would look gay for sure XD oh and i cried when watching the sotsugyou shiki again... LOL im hopeless... and kept replaying jinjin's "arigatou gozaimashita!" awwwwwwwwww im so gay but that choked up teary hoarse voice is sooooo *melts*
GAWD I RABU GOKUSEN.... THO THEY ALWAYS GET BEATEN UP LOL BUT THEY LOOK SOOOOO GOOOOOOOOD IN IT... *DIES*

ok rather incoherent entry i realised. and argh im so hungry... it's 5.40am, another two hours before there's any breakfast... *groans* and i've put on so much weight recently... ahah i sound like a total HOBO! mooching around, nothing to do, eating, sleeping... god... must really get rid of this kinda terrible lifestyle lol... though it's just been a week.. well i've always been a busy person with heaps of stuff to do and always planning things to look forward to...

ah just read through 3 weeks worth of entries on tako's blog LOL THAT BLOG IS A LIFESAVER... just like how i couln't live without jenn's blog when i was TxT fanatic... damn i miss takki... but really, can't have the time for more than one JE group... it's crazy!!

and thanks to my friend i'm so into ayumi lately again lol... we've been watching her MY STORY arena tour dvd and her Countdown Con vcd... lol but really she is SO PRETTY omg SO SO SOOOOO PRETTY she's unbelievable... and i really like it when she's all genki XD so cute! bought her new album (miss)understood... also bought Hyde's new album FAITH ^__^ whee~ but im flat broke now lol so no social life... hhahahah *dies* j-fandom.. *shakes head* i really should just move to japan someday (i wish) lol though i'll be PERMANENTLY BROKE there... FOR SURE... all those alluring clothes fashion food and cute stuff and gadgets and gizmos...

oh speaking of which if i stay in HK to study for uni... omgggggggg im so gonna save up and get a nicenice pretty VODAFONE... hhahaah the shop i order my con goods from... they can get VODAFONES for hk people like me XD so awesome deshou!?! and it's not even like THAT expensive for a japanese phone... prices are like.. a brand new NOKIA or PANASONIC phone... so... i shall invest in one... if i manage to save up XD lol.. only vodafones have GSM, that's why we can get them... ahhhhh but at least there's still ONE kind of japanese phone i can use here XD docomo is soooooo exclusive lol...

hmmmmmm well can't wait to get back sg with unlimited internet access lol and DL DL DL... need to watch KUROSAGI! XD

rabus kattun rabus jinjin rabus kame

goshhhhhhhhh i rabu kame so much lately.. he's really... SOOOOOOOO AMAZING I LOVE THIS BOY..... i mean i love jin to infinity too... but really... KAME... he REALLY IS A STAR... he's got the X-factor... maybe a diff X-factor from jin... but def X-factor.. i dunno how to put it... i mean just look at how he's improving so much over the years... his singing, his dancing and his acting too... sooooo proud of that boy... I LOVE YOUR DANCING KAME... SOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOD SOOOO PRO SOOOO TSUBASA-RASHII... being a dance person myself, i worship tsubasa as King of Dance lol and kame is totally gonna overthrow him one day :X LOL.. his technique is soooo good... i mean just watching DBS... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *chuuuuuuu kame* YOU WORK SO HARD BUT YOU STILL LOOK SO GOOD AND YOU STILL PERFORM EACH AND EVERY STEP SO PROFESSIONALLY... YOU SOOO GOOOD *HUGSSSSS*

man... and he's soooooooo cute and so goofy and such a respectable professional worker... really kinda like takki in a way... haha no wonder he became snuffy's No.2... right snuffy?? XD lol...
anyways... man he's so talented AHAHAHAH BUT I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIS STRIPTEASE IN DEBUT CON DVD *DIESSSSSSSSSSS* LOL BUT I THINK IT WILL BE LESS AWKWARD THAN TAKKI'S SELF-ENFORCED ERO DANCE IN THE CAGE NE....*runs away from snuffy and takki fans* LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL... takki's SO CUTE aaaaaaa i miss him... such a BAKA BAKA crazy hard worker and professional person but baka boy at heart XD hahahahaha his ero antics... LMAO poor takki ure better off being a kakkoii singer and goofball XD LMAO

ok i sound kinda high *thud* man something is so wrong with me lol...

anyways... CANNOT CANNOT WAIT TO SEE DEBUT CON ON DVD... IM SURE IT'LL BE HEAPS BETTER THAN KAIZOKUBAN lol... THEIR CONS JUST GET BETTER AND BETTER... I MEAN SPRING LOOKING WAS UP BY A NOTCH AND FROM WUT IM HEARING DEBUT CON IS EVEN MORE AMAZING... MAN... PINKY WILL BE SO GREAT ON DVD LOL.. *DIES* (ok why am i typing in caps thud lol ignore me..) but for chrissake PUT IN SOME MC TALK DAMMIT!! lol... LOADS OF MC PLEASE!!! XD just reading all these japanese MC talk repo giving me big headache i'd rather just WATCH IT lol...
AHHH AND KAME STRIPTEASE ON DVD *falls off chair*

rabu rabu rabu

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