2005-02-22 - 6:35 p.m.

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so many things to scream about lately, including Gokusen and Shokura performances and blah.

but right now i'm not exactly in the mood to talk about all that now.

i know in this blog i'm alot more impersonal in terms of my private/school life, cos i mainly talk about kattun and stuff here...

but well i don't know. sometimes i wonder how well people know me. how well they think they know me. and also how well i know them. in retrospect, i was a naive dabbler in fandom over the last few years. but i think i should be glad to say that i was lucky enough to meet fellow fans who became good friends of mine. hmm this is kinda corny i know, but i'm a thinker, okay? x) anyway had been feelin kinda down recently (okay more like up&down) because of stuff at school... so anyway i think this is a good time to do some shoutouts to the people who are important to me, in no particular order:

steph ~ hey girl. thanks loads for everything. always sending me stuff or helping me with things like that and being a great person to scream and laugh with. but it's also neat to know that you're someone i can talk to even on a more private level. i know we don't do that a lot but at least, even online, you can gain my trust, and i think that's something really special. like, i dunno, but i can sort of talk to you about stuff outside of JE sometimes, and i know you'd listen. and that really matters alot :) oh you know the other day actually i was kinda depressed because of school stuff.. but then i came online after school and you came screaming to me and all.. haha.. that really made me forget my worries.. fufu... so yeap, thanks. loveyouuu*

tako ~ YOU ARE SO CUTE. gosh *pinches cheeks* you are the nicest thing... really.. thanks loads for always making me smile.. for leaving msgs for me even when i'm not online, and then putting a smile on my face when i read em.. esp after long days at school >< ahh! and for all those.. stuff.. you're always giving me... including friendship :) love you much much.

ame ~ i've only known you for a while but i can already conclude one thing... YOU'RE CRAZY!! rofl~ mofo madness... but really enjoy talking to you.. lol you're so funny and you can always make me laugh xD arigatou for all the baka-ness.. or should i say BAGA-NESS... fufu.. keep lovin' akame!!

yuka ~ sorry for troubling you over the callie and pamphlet stuff the other time.. but you know, my finances practically revolve around kattun -_- and thanks always for talking to me and being nice and patient and cute ^.^

fang ~ I MISS YOU!! i don't know, but i think you're one cool girl. our friendship is special because even though we don't spend a lot of time talking/together and stuff.. i think we've managed to build a certain amount of trust between each other, and that's a great thing. i hope work is okay for you and don't stress out yeah. keep the emails coming - always love hearing from you :)

mel ~ prof, thanks for 6g. it's an awesome board. only you could do something like that. i hope you're doing okay at work and stuff. hug.

snuffles/caroline/nere ~ takki-sakusen-gumi. LOL. sorry i'm not as takki-active these few months but it's still great to chat to you girls online sometimes and catch up :) take care ne.

yuki ~ i've only talked to you a few times but you're a really neat person to talk to. somehow we can talk about everything ne. and the fact that you can trust me enough to tell me so much.. that's really neat. awesome knowing you.

akame ~ i seriously don't think i can live without you two. i can't live without jin, but i can't live without kame either, and vice versa. i know this sounds like ridiculous fanaticism, but hey, sometimes a girl just needs spice in her life to keep her going. you guys KNOW you are sexy and all that, but really, seeing your pics and watching your vids really make me happier :) so stay hot and cute and sexy and baka and TOGETHER and i will keep lovin' and supporting you two ;)

kat-tun/TxT/NEWS/JE ~ i think knowing about you guys was one of the coolest and craziest things that happened to me. you actually make me STRESSED too but very happy as well.

okay i know i left some people out but pls forgive me...
and yes this is a stupid entry but well sometimes i just need to get it out x)

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