2007-01-13 - 3:31 a.m.

missing jin

i am *FINALLY* on semester break. i actually have time to surf around LJ comms and watch dramas, stuff i haven't been able to do since uni started.

(spoiler alert: the following personal babbles on NANA2, Unfair and Sapuri contains a bit of spoilers, just so you know.)

first off, caught NANA2. as predicted, it wasn't as good as the first one. yui didn't go that good a job, although she did try. takumi on the other hand was so hot i nearly palpitated and passed out. SOOOOOOO INCREDIBLY HOT AND SEXY. mmmmmmmmm that manly, manly hottttt AURA and that confident CHARM he oozes *shudders* sooooooooo yummy. sexy sexy man.

my favourite scene in the entire movie was the one between Nana and Nobu. their friendship touched me the most, and mika's acting was AWESOME. i was really moved to tears at that point. she did an incredible job. mika you rock!

watched the drama on DVD - Unfair, starring shinohara as the lead. i give it a 10/10 for being such an awesome drama. really good sense of suspense and thrill in this dark mystery drama. and Eita, who played Ando, did a FANTASTIC JOB. really, his acting was incredibly convincing. acting as an ACTOR. faking everything. it was all FAKE. but he pulled it off so well that he fooled everyone. i was really shocked, totally taken by surprise, at the denouement. kudos to the scriptwriter for coming up with such an amazing plot! it's got just the right amount of suspense, thrill, mystery, and a touch of romance to give some spark. it really makes you think so much, about the themes of trust, relationships between people, the pschological MINDSETS of people and their behaviour... lots of action and enough to keep you hanging and thinking, but not too hard to follow or digest. perfectly composed. shinohara played her character really well too. kudos.

next, i finally watched Sapuri. it was a pretty nice drama. the filming was really well done - i don't know what they did, but the colour schemes and everything just looked great. i bought the DVD box set! haha. and of course Kame was more beautiful than ever. he just looks SO DAMN GOOD in his tees and jeans. god.. that WAIST. those hips that sashay while his low-rise jeans cling on to his pelvis *o* soooooo kakkoii and OMG THE SCENE WHERE HE WAS HOLDING THE PHONE AND CRYING... *DIESSSSSSSS* it was more breathtaking than anything... seriously. sooooo much improvement in his acting since Gokusen. i guess his character has alot to do with it too, since Sapuri requires him to be sunny, happy, lighthearted, but also confused, lost and hurt at the same time. i think he did a pretty good job, really. i have no idea WHY misaki ito ever complained his acting was poor =o= she's not THAT great either. seriously i kinda got annoyed with that pouty expression permanently frozen on her face -____- but OMG i really, really DIED during the chu scene >///< kyaaaaaaaaaa i dunno why i felt soooooooo dajfkladslghg when i saw it. whereas when i saw jin kiss shinohara, i wasn't that jdfkldjfla. i dunno cos jin seems kinda pro and all. HAHA. as in professional in his acting. but kame... kyaaaaaaaaa i dunno it's like watching a baby give away his first screen chuuuu to an ebil woman >o< NYAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~

but overall a pretty nice drama. kame is such a CUTE kisser. omgggggg the last ep.. where he plants those cute little kisses all over misaki's lips >o< *dies* i wonder if he ever did that to jin...

sighhhhh

speaking of jin.

ever since uni started my life has been so busy and so much has happened. there really isn't enough time for be to be a fangirl anymore. so even after tako dropped the bomb on me in october.. although i WAS shocked and upset to find out jin went on hiatus... i really had no time to be upset about it for a day longer. of course, i lost all interest in buying mags and avoided listening to kat-tun songs completely, because i didn't want to be reminded. but now that i've got some free time... tonight, for the first time... i dunno, i just felt like crying. i still do right now. my nose is itchy >< deep down, i'm really, truly upset jin's left. and i really HATE the uwasa about how he's left for good, etc. i don't want to believe in that. it's comforting to see some postitive (well, sorta) uwasa about LA people sighting him studying there, etc. confirming him studying and stuff like that.

sigh. i dunno man. it's just that... kat-tun is such an important part of my life. even though i don't always have time for them, i've never, ever stopped loving them. same for T&T. i just didn't have time anymore. but because deep down inside i always respect and support them, i never fail to buy their CD's, to support them in my own way. i don't have time to check blogs, forums, news everyday. i don't even have time to download anything or watch the latest variety shows. i really wished i had all that time i did before. i'd love a 24/7 otaku fangirl life. haha. but it's not possible. and i'm just going to have to live with it.

sorry kinda went off-track that. anyway. knowing that kat-tun's 2007 calendar - their FIRST, OFFICIAL CALENDAR since debut - will not include jin.. well, my fragile heart shatters *melodrama* sighhhhhhhhhhhh.

I REALLY, REALLY MISS JIN.

i really want him to come back. jin. please. please come back to us T__________T you don't know how much we miss you. it's just not right having a single/cal/concert without you. yea, just found out from tako there will be a 2007 kt con.

no jin...?

god i really want to cry. but it would be for selfish reasons.

jin, i really believe in you. and i hope that you will keep your promise. your promise to fulfill your dreams and follow your heart. and your promise to come back.

although i'd love for you to come back as soon as you can... i know that it's a really, really rare chance that you've been given from Johnny to take a break to realise some of your dreams. and i really hope that you are having a very worthwhile and enriching time. if it has to extend, i understand. we all do. as true jin fans, what we all want, is your happiness.

i just hope that you will remember, though, that your career thus far did not come easy either. to have stayed a jr for 5 years before debuting. all those pre-debut days. and your friendship with kat-tun. the joy and amazement and feeling of performing on stage in front of thousands. your love of singing. your incredible GIFT and TALENT for singing, dancing and performing. please don't forget all that too.

i will keep praying for you. i wish you all the best in your studies.

i am waiting for you to come back.

<3

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